I understandWhy people become faithfulFor hope when there is noneFor grace when you’re wrongFor prayer when nothing else can be doneFor love when you’re aloneFor belief that the struggle is part of a divine planI understandBut all I want to do is scream at the sky

We have a wedding to attend this weekend. The ceremony and the reception are both outdoors and it’s BYO everything, and pick your own spot in the grassy field by the river. I haven’t stopped worrying since we RSVP’d. Used to be all I had to worry about was being fat and finding the right … Continue reading Being Me →

I might have too much attachment to things. I do not know how to look at my grandma’s old dishes, only three plates left, now, some of them chipped, and not remember all the Sunday dinners I ate from those plates. The mashed potatoes in the matching bowl and the platter full of turkey or … Continue reading My Life in Junk →

The pandemic, I’ve decided, is like a break up. One of those bad ones where you’re either the surprised dumpee, or the other person has done something so horrible that you have no choice but to break up, which feels like being the dumpee anyway. At first, you don’t believe it. Just give it a … Continue reading Dumped →

This is a fundraiser post. I thought I’d tell you that up front, in case you want to leave, though you’re welcome to stay for the story. It’s a cause that’s near and dear to me, just like it is to one out of two women. I don’t post about it often, but it’s the … Continue reading Seasons Givings →

I’m turning into one of those people who could move into the wilderness forever. A big chunk of wilderness, so the neighbors are far away, and there are no cameras. No security cameras no doorbell cameras no cellphone cameras no trail cameras no drones with cameras. Did I ever tell you how I almost know … Continue reading SMILE! You’re on Camera! →

There’s a cat living in my backyard. I do not want another cat. I do not want one on a boat, I do not want one in a moat, I do not want another cat, I do not want one, that is that! I thought it was the neighbor’s cat but their cat is tuxedo … Continue reading Green Eggs and Cats →

Last year I ordered a new winter coat. I had a good coupon (40% off!) so I went all out. Good to forty below, down to the knees, nice hood, water repellent material. Bright blue. To my disappointment, when it arrived it was ginormous. It’s a problem I have when I order things online. I … Continue reading The Big Comfy Coat →

Grandpa died last night in his sleep. It’s exactly what I wanted to happen. For him to go peacefully, for him not to suffer any longer. The idea of him suffering was more than any of us could bear. But, of course, it’s still a sad day. I’m a long way away from home, so … Continue reading With Love, →

I’m having one of those perfect moments. The sun is shining, there’s a light breeze that brings with it the smell of damp leaves and decay. Fall. We’re in between thunderstorms, expected to last on and off through the night. J is playing “She Talks to Angels” on the acoustic guitar. It’s beautiful melody floats … Continue reading A Perfect Moment →